My eyes burn from these tears,You think you'd learn over these years.
Meet Starburst! :)
Ok i brought him/her to school today,and i realise rabbits really make everyone go soft ok! Including the gays hmm.. Well Ming Yan and Hong Yong were super like super super super affectionate to it gasp! It's kind of scary actually,watching how Ming Yan kisses my bunny especially :/ I hope my rabbit did not experience any trauma. Ok i hope even more that Ming Yan doesn't happen to read this haha.
My bunny is so cute no?Ah its so small okay,like really really tiny. Sometimes i even mistake it for a hamster,how can right! Phylicia i know youre jealous but too bad no rabbits or hamsters or cats for you,your dog don't allow haha neyneynipoopoo :D
Yesterday i brought my bunny to the corridoor to let it run around. Siah lah bad decision,my neighbour's three kids came running out to play with it. They don't want let me hold the rabbit and insist on holding it all stillllll nevermind. Then the oldest of them three dropped my rabbit wtf! Like almost one metre high?I got pissed i almost scolded them. That same boy still dare hinthint say "How i wish i could borrow it" Like ya if i lent you the rabbit it will return dead.I took my rabbit and said i want to eat dinner already and went back into my house. Today they came over and said they wanna see the rabbit.My dad boomed at them "Rabbit sleeping lah!" Haha it was hilarious.Kids are usually so cute,i wonder how they turned out like that tsk.
Unknowingly,i've actually typed a whole post of my rabbit ha.Now to me,I've been giving it some good thought,i won't pierce my lip already.Although it's like super hot and some are telling me to go ahead with it,i won't because,i will get many upset.Okay,and should i dye blue-black black-red or brown?Hello i need help in more than one way ha.
You know,i feel like you really cannot be bothered.And i'm like the fool trying to piece everything together,thanks?Really sucks you know the feeling,and since you had ask me to talk to you through this stupid hell of a fucking blog and not even to your face,it just seems to me that you can't face up to what happened,that you can't face me,in some way.Maybe i remind of what happened that chalet night,maybe i remind you of so many unhappiness.Ok fine,but you can't avoid me forever,things still have to be settled.My friends are calling me stupid you know,to be waiting like that.And actually,i find myself stupid too.You keep harping on "If you really love me, ..." Now its my turn.If you'd really love me,you would forgive me for those simple and stupid things i've made you upset with and not just avoid the whole issue and leave it one side to pile up.It is because of that,did we end up with so much quarrels all,because it was all piled up.If you really did love me,you wouldn't have cared about your face your pride more than or as much as you cared for me.The chalet incident,i remember i asked you if you were upset because that girl was me or because that guy can laugh at you,you said both.
Long time ago,i had wanted to end us already,but i never could bear to because i didn't want to see you upset.But you never considered that point.When you wanted it you just went ahead so you could feel better.Then,as you like it,you hurt me further telling me you loved me less and all.Ok fine i took it in i did stupid things that in my opinion could numb me and make me feel better.Then you got angry and all.Nevermind that also.I did even more stupid things,things that could have gotten me into trouble.Then only did you tell me what your feelings never changed you love me you want me back.Only when something happen did you tell me all that.I mean,whats the point now..Your pm writes "Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me.." It shows you can't move on,yet why do you keep avoiding this shit.Whenever i try to talk to you about it,you either ignore me or ignore me.Why do you have to torture me further,why?
I'm not too good at words,and maybe you disagree with everything i've said up there.That's all just my point of view and like you see things from yours and not try to understand mine,this too,is my point of view.There's like a thousand more emotions bustling in me.But i don't know how to let them out.I don't want to breakdown again,because i want to show you i'm stronger than you ever thought i was.But someday,i fear..I'll let it all go - the wrong way.
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Good things won't last forever. }
8:07 PM
Hellogoodbye
JT, Jasmine Teo Ai Ping Esther - 16 sooooon.
I need piercings.I need money.I need shopping.I need
clothes.I need cool friends.I need true friends.I need
fun.I need love.I need adrenaline.I need alcohol(!!!).I
need tons of music.I'm a little mixed up with needs
and wants but maybe i'm that little bit more than
your average girl next door.
This is how it's been, this is how it will be
And when you wake up with him, rmb whn it was me
And I always will be waiting for you
And I know that you will never see...that
I can't break away from these chains to my heart
The further you push me the closer you are
Maybe I should try to let go
Maybe I should try to walk away
There's nothing left to say, yeaheeyeah
Do you rmb when,you used to laugh there w me
And now I've bcome th joke,a punchline's al I will be
And I always will be waiting for you
And I know that you will never see ...that
I can't break away from these chains to my heart
The further you push me the closer you are
Maybe I should try to let go
Maybe I should try to walk away
There's nothing left to say
You'll be waiting for the rest of your life
Just so you can finally miss him
These words dn't mean a thg but I'l say them anyway
...anyway, yeah
I can't break away from these chains to my heart
The further you push me the closer you are
Maybe I should try to let go
Maybe I should try to walk away
There's nothing left to say...but
I can't break away from these chains to my heart
The further you push me the closer you are
Maybe I should try to let go
Maybe I should try to walk away
There's nothing left to say, yeahheahh
'Cause I can’t break away
Temptations
∅ Mango black jeans!!!!
∅ Topshop retro dress
∅ Sony Vaio
∅ That red camera
∅ Zara floral top
∅ River Island speg
∅ Topshop floral dress
a Diva necklace
∅ Heels
∅ Paul Frank Girl Boxers
∅ Long hair
∅ End of O'Levels
